Yesterday evening I slept, with mind still wavering on what is best to do.
With the circumstances right now, the best option- I thought loudly, would be to settle for what is sure. And then ten seconds later, I take it back.
That was how I drifted off to sleep.
At around 6:00 this morning, I woke up and started my now 13th day routine.
No more time to think.
Last July 01, I have been accepted as an apprentice to one of BCI Asia's Top Architectural Firms.
And now for the 10th time I took a bath, hoping it will be another good office day.
Alas!
Just when I was about to finish savoring my morning peace, my stomach ached so bad I had to run to bed before I collapse. I didn't- Just thought I would.
It was a usual problem I have and I think it has something to do with my internal organs.
But it has been weeks since my last stomach cramps.
Imagine sacrifing a bonus for perfect attendance: no lates and no absences.
That was how painful it was.
So I laid in bed 'till around 11 am.
'Twas the best sleep I had for 13 straight days.
At 12 pm, the pain was gone.
I had released one big poop. Hahahaha.
Moments later, I remembered yesterday's affairs and why Mick is constantly saying he's overwhelmed with the situation.
Who wouldn't be?
We were offered to design atleast 10 to 20 sure condo units plus some 2 or 3 residential dwellings in McKinley.
All only this 2009 and only until we are ready to venture to bigger projects.
All we had to do is to design 2 units with our inner-reserved skills.
If the owner likes it, then we push through with the deal.
If all goes well, in a few years, its possible for Mick and I to start a firm.
Our very own firm.
Imagine how those words rang in our ears.
But, here is the downside of it all- Board Exams.
I am now an employee and practicing while learning until I am able to finish the required hours to be able to take the Boards which is atleast two years from now.
I need to be trained by a licensed Architect and he has to sign something as proof I am more than ready to get my license as well. That's how it goes, I think.
For 9 days I have been a draftsman and a renderer with a basic salary.
Just yesterday, I have been offered to become a designer and earn what is due me.
But, the boards will have to pass.
Yet again, I thought, you take the boards to be licensed to earn more money.
If you're already earning more than what you should be, then be called 'architect' in the field, even if unlicensed, then what's the point of hurrying the boards?
My head is aching.
I know if I do two jobs at the same time, I am not going to perform my best at either one of the two.
The projects will be half-hearted and that is what I hate doing.
I may earn bigger but satisfaction will be less and sooner or later, it will be no fun at all.
So I have to make a choice.
And because I had cramps this morning, I have the whole day to think.
For now and until I know I can be great at both, then what's the reason to choose?
Everything happens for a reason.
I am hoping for the reason to dawn unto me soon.
Until that happens, I believe it's best to trust my instincts and know what will really make me happy.
Thanks to cramps I can rest well tonight.
'Till my next post.
★ k a t
With the circumstances right now, the best option- I thought loudly, would be to settle for what is sure. And then ten seconds later, I take it back.
That was how I drifted off to sleep.
At around 6:00 this morning, I woke up and started my now 13th day routine.
No more time to think.
Last July 01, I have been accepted as an apprentice to one of BCI Asia's Top Architectural Firms.
And now for the 10th time I took a bath, hoping it will be another good office day.
Alas!
Just when I was about to finish savoring my morning peace, my stomach ached so bad I had to run to bed before I collapse. I didn't- Just thought I would.
It was a usual problem I have and I think it has something to do with my internal organs.
But it has been weeks since my last stomach cramps.
Imagine sacrifing a bonus for perfect attendance: no lates and no absences.
That was how painful it was.
So I laid in bed 'till around 11 am.
'Twas the best sleep I had for 13 straight days.
At 12 pm, the pain was gone.
I had released one big poop. Hahahaha.
Moments later, I remembered yesterday's affairs and why Mick is constantly saying he's overwhelmed with the situation.
Who wouldn't be?
We were offered to design atleast 10 to 20 sure condo units plus some 2 or 3 residential dwellings in McKinley.
All only this 2009 and only until we are ready to venture to bigger projects.
All we had to do is to design 2 units with our inner-reserved skills.
If the owner likes it, then we push through with the deal.
If all goes well, in a few years, its possible for Mick and I to start a firm.
Our very own firm.
Imagine how those words rang in our ears.
But, here is the downside of it all- Board Exams.
I am now an employee and practicing while learning until I am able to finish the required hours to be able to take the Boards which is atleast two years from now.
I need to be trained by a licensed Architect and he has to sign something as proof I am more than ready to get my license as well. That's how it goes, I think.
For 9 days I have been a draftsman and a renderer with a basic salary.
Just yesterday, I have been offered to become a designer and earn what is due me.
But, the boards will have to pass.
Yet again, I thought, you take the boards to be licensed to earn more money.
If you're already earning more than what you should be, then be called 'architect' in the field, even if unlicensed, then what's the point of hurrying the boards?
My head is aching.
I know if I do two jobs at the same time, I am not going to perform my best at either one of the two.
The projects will be half-hearted and that is what I hate doing.
I may earn bigger but satisfaction will be less and sooner or later, it will be no fun at all.
So I have to make a choice.
And because I had cramps this morning, I have the whole day to think.
For now and until I know I can be great at both, then what's the reason to choose?
Everything happens for a reason.
I am hoping for the reason to dawn unto me soon.
Until that happens, I believe it's best to trust my instincts and know what will really make me happy.
Thanks to cramps I can rest well tonight.
'Till my next post.
★ k a t
